Thursday, May 10, 2007

Taking up my cross

Yesterday I was feeling a little sad. It was just one of those days. So this morning I began contemplating some of that sadness and examining my emotions. The Lord brought to mind a particular wound in my heart that seems as though it will never heal.

I began to cry out to the Lord about that pain and sorrow and I said out loud "This is killing me, God. You're killing my heart with this sorrow."

Right in that moment the Lord responded and said "Yes, I am. I am killing all the things in you that are not from me. I am killing every thought, every emotion, every hurt and every comfort that keep you bound. I will put to death all of those things, and it will hurt. But it is my good and perfect plan for you."

I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me. ~ Galatians 2:20

1 comment:

EBay said...

I read this post yesterday and didn't really have much to say, but I did understand. I have thought about it a lot over the last 24 hours and just wanted to say that I can honestly relate. No big words of wisdom, except to say I know how painful it is to let the hurt sink in so the Lord can heal it, but also that His presence throughout, and the healing that eventually comes, is completely worth it!